Peace, anyone?

I know you have heard of the story of the little birds resting peacefully under their mother's wings while the storm passes their nest up on a branch of the swaying tree. They have peace because they trust the mother bird. The little birds knew their mom. They knew their mom can protect them but that's not all. They also knew that she will. They knew her character.

Know the person first and then you will be able to trust him to the extent of what you discovered about him. 

Search about God's character first then after that say you trust Him because that is the only time that you have really place your trust in Him. 

Faith is not blind. It rests on hard evidence. Discover the evidence and you will have faith.

Know whom you are putting your trust into. Know whom you are placing your life into. Find out what He is saying about Himself and see if it corresponds exactly to what He is doing.  If you found Him trustworthy, that is the only time you will experience peace in the midst of the storm because at that very moment that  you found the truth about Him, you will be compelled to trust Him. 

The moment you realized that one plus one equals two, no one in the world will be able to make you think otherwise.

When you found Him true to His words, you are compelled to believe.

You will know that His wings will cover you. He will protect you.

Know Him. Trust. Peace.

I Will Not Cry

I think I will not cry.

If the one that I cherished the most left me, I will not cry. Why should I cry when I know in my heart that I have loved her more than I have loved my own life?

If she tries to hurt me through words and the words became like piercing arrows that cuts deep and even reaches the soul that it hurts too much, I will not cry. Why would I cry when I know in my heart that I haven't let go of the promise I once made to love her unto the very end, even if at the moment  she doesn't understand the way that I'm treating her?

If the girl that I love the most treated me as though I could not be trusted, I will not cry. Why should I cry when I know in my heart that even though I am not perfect, I know I have done my best?

If I have lost the love of my life, I think I will not cry.There are many reasons why...but then I could be wrong. I'm still human. I think if I lost her, I will cry after all.

And may the open fields cry with me. Let the leaves fall to the ground and may the red flowers let their petals fall as if a brushing wind softly damped their cold hands into their tiny stem, shaking the leaves as it passes by.

I call on the sky to cry with me. Let it be full of clouds. Let it be dark as it may. And may my tears be as many as the raindrops on a thunderstorm. And as the tears flow down my cheeks let it be like the waters flowing on the river up to the great ocean.

Yes, I will cry after all. For what is life without you? What is life without the one you love?

Will you cry? Or will you not?

A heart of stone? or a heart of flesh?

Will you alter the flow? or go with the pain, stay in the rain and learn?

Will you let the raindrops fall so it can water the earth and cause the grass to grow? 

A good cry can save you a lot of heartaches.

Heart Matters

I can't quit now. Or should I?

There are lot of questions at the back of my mind. My mother just died. There's another story behind what I have just told you. It was back then.. a few months ago..when I suffered from stress and deppression.  Yes, the pain of having being left alone by the one who brought me into this world and have given me so much love, yes, yes, the pain  just added up unto this very day.

I had a good job but the stress that i'm feeling always keep me out of focus. Another thing is...always thinking on how to make happy those people that matters to me. I know I'm doing my best but the one thing that I now realized is that you cannot make everybody happy and will always fall short of their expectations. People will always find fault in almost everything that you do. Even those things that you thought you have given your whole heart and strenght and mind.

Are there people who can really understand the heart so they will help you not to hurt? 

I don't think so.

I remember the saying "the heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure".

In my experience, I think it's true.  The moment that you think you can understand your own heart that is the moment that you don't.

I have tried to have the best intentions in almost all aspects of my daily life even in my present relationships...even on the way I speak and the words I let out of my mouth. But then, in just a flash, if what I did doesn't get accepted and what I have given my best was trampled upon and was not recognize but rather was neglected and criticized, there were thoughts from my heart racing to come out of my mouth. Thoughts of anger. 

What a heart! For just a while it has the best of intentions and in the next moment it was raging in anger.

I tried to contemplate. Anger is not the root cause but rather it is self pity. Not being recognized and appreciated by what you think you did right. And it's all inside my heart.

" I have put all my energies into it! and that is all that you would have to say! I did my best! But it wasn't good enough for you! I haven't heard any thank you's at all!"

" I spent time just to talk to you! I did my best to schedule this time for you! I went thru many hassles in the office just to make time for you! But instead of appreciating what i did you keep on demanding more time!"

And it just goes on and on and on...until you resort to self pity and then you will feel the stress and after a while you will get deppress and you do not need to wait for too long and you will see that relationships will begin to break and deteriorate. And then it's gone...forever. 

Love and rage has something in common. They both know how to burn. And the heart is capable of both. Would it help if i fuel love the most and try to quench the fire of rage? Is it possible to detect and feel the heat of rage before the fire becomes out of range? If it is possible, can I pour icy water on it so it would not cause any damage at all? 

If the relationship is more important than being right I think we should try to quench the fire of anger before its fire comes out of the mouth. It's hard to fight a fire breathing dragon. And I don't want to be a fire breathing dragon myself. Nevertheless, we know that sometime in our lives, and we regret those times, we became a member of the fire breathing dragon clan. And oh! how we regret those moments when we opened our mouths to our dearest friends and our words became fire that deeply hurt them. Not knowing that we are hurting ourselves the most.

What a heart we have!

Is there any cure at all?! Do we have a doctor who specializes with heart issues?

Oh God help us! CAn you please search our hearts and know our thoughts? Can you please do the cleansing and please create a new heart in us!